A beautiful world, isn't it?

Let’s just keep talking for a change, no topics to add boundaries to our thoughts, no concrete ideas, just you and I talking about what we can call life.
Now I know it’s too vast a topic for an 18 year old, but I think we can agree on the fact that when toddlers can be taught quantum physics for beginners, then we should have the capability to actually think about life.

This might be one of the most absurd questions ever put forward, “ what is life”. Since the day we got into ur senses, we have been taught that life is not easy, you have to work hard if you want to make it worth living, Now I simply asked this without thinking much, however, if we try to find the answer to it, we would reach a conclusion that every individual, every child, every adult, sees it differently. Ask a Stem major, he would reply by saying its the ability of an organism to breathe and survive in its habitat, ask a minor, he would reply saying its the ability to finally have the car or the house of their dreams, ask an old man and you would get a lecture.

How many of us actually paused this so-called life of ours, and for a moment thought, why am I doing this? Is the reason why I began still out there, or did I forget it in the middle of a rat race no one knows who put us into.

Some days when everything is going right, I don't know why but my mind wanders onto trails I never wanted it to trod.

I think it’s just the fact of being in the” neither here nor there” phase, our brains grew quicker than we could and now we do what everybody calls “overthinking”. It has become so prevalent lately that people have made it a point of comparison, yeah like we didn’t have plenty of those already,” thank you for finally having a reason to be compared to the next person”. A few people, you would literally find them comparing problems trying to one up another. And these guys and girls then have the audacity to call themselves adults and give themselves delusions like I am mature and will become a great adult, man you still trip 4 times before you finally decide to re-tie your shoe.

If you ask me, why am I writing this, the reason is, it is one of those times in my life when I feel lost. There’s everything around me, literally perfect but something feels empty. Everyone calls me different, “good” different, but sometimes I too wish I was average, would have had to work less, would have had to put in a little less effort. when you know you are not here just for something ordinary but there is no one way to find out which path to go towards. The world asks you to be the best, be at the top of your game, constantly, no one ever tries to ask what we want, it’s always what is ideal, which is even more funny because ideal is one of the most subjective things there can be, but still, life is a race, if you don’t run fast enough someone will catch up to you. And then what? And then that someone else will replace the top spot that was made for you, someone else will get the slightly better job, someone else will get a tad bit higher salary. If you cannot wrap your head around that then you would quit and in the end someone else would be writing another note, lauding what a marvel of a person you were, how everyone wanted you to be just you, not some reflection of a portrait of some intelligent guy on the walls of the university, how this rat race took away a beautiful being from this world, a rat race no one began but everyone was up and about for running.